Saturday, April 21, 2007

Cath Up (sort of)

I realized this morning that I haven't posted in several days. Something occurred to me as I was fussing at myself for not doing so. It seems that each day I do well in one or two (three and a really good day) areas and sort of not so good in the others. I'm wondering if that's OK. IS it possible for me to do well in ALL areas in one day. I know the answer is yes if I'm pulling from the source of power that dwells in me. Maybe I just haven't figured out yet how to be dependent on Him. I tend to take over and do things myself. Anyway here's how I've been doing:

Consumption: The eating has been pretty good. I'm remembering now how frequently I eat little bits if I'm truly waiting for hunger and stopping at full. I had two days that I felt like I ate ALL day and was shocked the next morning to wake up and have a full-on tummy growl before 9:00 am! Hydration has been pitiful. I've had a scratchy throat (sinus yuck) so it doesn't feel good to drink much. I can tell however that it's effecting me because my rings are tight. It always amazes me how quickly I can start retaining fluid, and then how quickly I can loose it if I actually hydrate myself well.

Exercise: I walked another 3 laps at the mall with Kara & Stephanie on Thursday.

Clutter Control: It's been in spurts. I've done a lot of laundry, taken in some more shorts so they don't fall off my children. I cleaned out some of the baby implements from my kitchen to send down to me brother and his wife. (my nephew will be here very soon!!!) I monogrammed some little pouches my friend Erika made for me so I can switch to on BIG tote for the summer and still have the kid's stuff organized. I emptied, cleaned, and refilled the fish tank so Paris can get some new guppies next weekend. I've barely kept up with the kitchen. Oh, and I washed all the car seats - they were gross.

Spiritual Development: I've been in Luke all week. Chapters 10-13 mostly. I've been very convicted about the thinking on material issues deal. It's hard sometime because from a business perspective we are taught over and over to set goals, have a picture of your dream where you can see it, think about what you want to achieve as often as possible. Even in counseling I was taught to help people set goals that are physical, measurable, tangible even. It's hard to put those thoughts together without focusing on material things. Don't get me wrong. I don't think there's anything wrong with setting goal in that manner. If you don't have a measurable goal, how can you tell if you're making progress? I guess the issue I'm having is figuring out how that all goes together with what I'm getting from scripture this week. All that material stuff doesn't matter. What I truly want is to lead a Spirit led life. Ultimately I want to go home and here my Father say "well done good and faithful servant." I know that Gos puts dreams in my heart. I truly believe he was in charge of the house I'm sitting in from day one. I'm just not sure what to do with my thoughts. It's so easy to get preoccupied by the things here on earth that we forget to focus on what's really important - growing the Kingdom of God. It really sounds like I'm bashing the concept of seeking financial growth, and that's not my intent. I'm just trying to figure out how these concepts should for me in my life. What is it exactly God wants me to be doing right now? Hmmm.........I better go, I'm meeting a friend for coffee this morning (all by myself!).


Marlin said...

Psalm 114:15 "The Lord will increase you (Sarah and Easy) more and more. You (Sarah and Easy) and your children (Paris, Tripp, and Viv)!" Increase doesn't have to be financial - you're right. I do believe however that we can be increased and grow in wisdom, health, better marriages, better friendships, creativity, and finances. It's about our focus. Are we truly focusing on growing the kingdom of God, or our own personal kingdom? That's the kicker! I truly believe if our focus is right, the fulfilling of the desires of our heart comes along with it. You are on the right track! Lara

Toppooch said...

I think as long as you're trying and doing something you're succeeding. Anything you're doing now is better than doing nothing. Don't beat yourself up! Just keep trying to put forth the effort! - Lesa